My room

This was my room(circled in red) during a good part my engineering days. A place where I learned a lotta things... and place where i get nostalgic abt. i love to see the foto of that building... but i am scard to nter the place... scared cos i have a feeling that it wont recognise me.. and that tot is really scary...
some memories i guess are better left untouched and viewed frm a distance and this for sure is one of them...
i have more things to tell u abt my college and my life in and around it.. but i guess i am not in the best writing mood to jot more stuff abt it right now... come back to view this place again...i will have a new story to tell u...

The Walk

its been a long time now...
i no more hear the words i heard b4
and no more can i cry out wid any sort of conviction
was it that i was blinded den
or that my lips are tied by the threads of truth..
insecure i grow by the minute
am i supposed 2 be here now...
or shud i be walkin away frm the solitude?
i always wanted u 2 luv me..
but i aint no more sure..
cos it will make it more difficult.
and i wanna walk..
please lemme go.!!!

...and the guilt embraced

guilt had me conquered. for all the things wrong and right..

cos never cud i differ the black frm the white.

may be it aint my prob... but how cud i believe that it aint???

let me be....

'confused' is the word that suits me best.
not sure if thats all that fits me.
i am no more on the path that u want me.
and further frm where i want me to be.
lost in the transition of a boy to man.
i am yet a boy wid an alter ego.
push me hard and harder 2 the floor.
just wanna knw how low i can get frm now.
lost in the world of tangling web
I am confused..

The Land Mine

the Land Mine

The sky was murky.
It seems like that something is gonna give.
I'm sure now even mother earth is conspiring against us.
Don't go! Don't do it!
I can hear those words so loud.
Inside me or is it outside, I aint sure.
Oh no!!! I have seen this somewhere before.
Felt all of this sometime ago.
I swear this aint a Déjà vu.

The chopper is up and the winds are heavy.
The gushing trees and the cursing nature.
Oh God, save me for I am gonna sin.
Am I this powerless – am I so weak.
Can't not I do what I wanna do?
Oh God please gimme some command – Or please let this chopper sink.
Another five minutes and I am there – to those brothers across the border.
I am not scared to die but I am so much more to kill.

The wind is blowing so hard and we are struggling to land.
This is my one last chance – I'll jump out and run.
'Guys get ready and roll' – and I heard the captain scream.
And ran I did – as fast as I could.
But luck had it that I'll – but only as far as the cliff.
Oh no… am I ready for this???
Yes sure I'm – ya I am now ready to die.
Thank you God that you heard my prayers – and I never had to kill.

My truth part2

My truth part 2


Luck has departed me now,
But that aint all true, cos I was never the lucky one.
Now all caged up in an asylum,
Those words make an ironic sense.

Pull me under and even more closer to hell.
You might think I hate it.
My screams are no more screams of agony,
They are of moans of my enlightened soul.

I love thee and so I tell you,
Please believe me this is true.
You are in a fake world and this you would rue,
If you don’t listen – Listen to me right now!!!


Built on lies and built on theories,
And things have been assumed.
Trust me my love there are all flawed.
come to me, come right now.

i will show ur dreams,
i will show u the truth!!!

My Truth part 1

MY TRUTH Part 1


I don’t rhyme words no more,
Don’t believe in dreams no longer.
Dark rooms are where I wanna be,
And darker rums my best allies.
Affection – give it or take it – makes no sense.
Hate, Anger, Misery – rhymes well with every breath I take.



A year has passed and things have changed.
For better or worse it is your say now.
Detached from my body I wonder along,
Move farther and farther from your world.
Music and sweets I love – With an ash, a needle or a leaf.
Oh they give me exotic pleasure!!!


Flying away from this world here,
I am ever so close to the stairs of heaven.
Hate, anger and misery are now replaced,
By love peace and ecstasy,
Don’t care any more if you hate me or if I love thee!!!
Cos the truth aint any closer to you – or is it???